@Carrie,
Thank you for asking. At the moment I am better emotionally. The mixed episode seems to have abated and I am feeling better about myself. The sense of uselessness has passed, at least for now. I am getting better sleep and feeling balanced during the day. All of this is good.
However, physically I am doing poorly. I suffered a severe injury to my back in 1988 that caused me to go on long term disability in 1994. I have had chronic pain since. Here lately, the painful sensations in my legs have been increasing, to the point where doing my exercises actually hurt me more than they help. My pain is pretty constant, and since I am a recovering alcoholic, I won't take anything more powerful than Tylenol. I may have to go back to my stick (cane).
I also have a difficult month ahead of me. I have taken a break from my support group, so I won't have those meetings to help me stay balanced. I am already receiving calls from my friends there, but I won't get the feedback I usually have from facilitating the group. My wife is going to visit family on the 19th and will be gone for around three weeks. I always go mixed when she is gone. Don't know why, just do. My therapist will be unavailable for the next two weeks, so I won't have her. And our finances make it clear that I have to quit smoking, something I haven't been able to do in 25 years of trying.
So I am going to go to more AA meetings, keep busy with my friends and try to use all of the tools I have picked up over the last nine years. I know I will be okay. The only real concern is if I have a major breakdown when my wife is gone. She will have to rush back, not for me but to take care of the dog (LOL). But I know that I have the tools I need to maintain during a crisis and get through it, so I am not worried.
Again, thanks for asking about me. It is terrific to have good friends, even if they are cyber.
Take care.
Medications for September 3, 2012 to October 3, 2012
| 08-21-2012 - Present: | Effient, 10 mg.1 time daily |
08-11-2012 - Present: | Ambien, 10 mg.1 time daily |
07-24-2012 - Present: | Potassium, 99 mg.once daily |
02-21-2012 - Present: | Depakote, 500 mg.One morning three night |
01-26-2012 - Present: | Clonazepam, 0.5.2 times daily |
01-26-2012 - Present: | Spiriva, 1 mg.1 time daily |
01-26-2012 - Present: | Proair, 1 mg.2 puffs every 4-6 hours as needed |
01-05-2012 - Present: | Atrovent 0.06%, 1 mg.1-2 sprays 3-4 times daily |
12-19-2011 - Present: | Advair, 1 mg.2 puffs daily |
12-19-2011 - Present: | Astepro, 1 mg.2 sprays 2 times daily |
09-01-2010 - Present: | Seroquel XR, 800 mg.One time per day |
06-26-2006 - Present: | Lysinapril, 2.5.one time daily |
06-26-2006 - Present: | Nitro Glycerin, 1 mg.as needed |
06-26-2006 - Present: | Metroprol Tartate, 25 mg.two times daily |
06-26-2006 - Present: | Asprin, 81 mg.one time daily |
06-26-2006 - Present: | Simvastatin, 40 mg.One time daily |
01-01-2000 - Present: | Viagra, 100 mg.as needed |
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Bob
I'm damned if I'll be defeated.
Joined: 08-06-2012