Weird Side Effect From Saphris

Yeah...As y'all have noticed...

Up til yesterday, I have had no mixed moods, and have only been feeling good-at least on my mood charts, and aside from my minor complaints here and there and my support and advice and congratulations to the other members here. But now..*sigh* It started yesterday, and I had a major seizure, but no episode. And it was bad, and the threats I was making to myself int he seizure that I was going to put myself permanentally in the state hospil without further notice if I didn't keep something up(no clue, it was jumbled) were getting to the point I almost did, but then would've(knowing me) regretted it. Thank goodness I didn't. But I self harmed(not bite, not cut, or anything else I've reported to y'all as self harm), and there was blood loss. I made my nose bleed basically. Basically I did what I used to do(aside from the biting), when I was like 6 or 7(when mental health issues first were noticed by my parents). All over something that my ma said to me in a text message. Today I was on the bus and I had failed(yet again) to get a letter from a staff member at the Frontier House, stating that I am unable to serve jury duty and to permanentally take me off the jury duty list, so that I could send it in to the person who sent me the summons. Well since I had failed at that yet again, now I have no choice but to go on Monday and try again. I think the reason behind my forgetting and thus "failing' to get it done is that I'm afraid that they will tell me that they can't do that by law and that a doctor has to do that. Well I don't see my shrink until the 17th of next month. So that's a problem until then, and I have to get that taken care of NOW, or else if I get myself admitted into the mental hospil for "a tune up", then they'll look at my ID and look me up, and they'll see that I have a warrent because of not attending jury duty due to my mental illness. Then they'll keep me in the hopsil past May's internet bill and my rent, and then I'll lose all of my belongings and end up homeless. And, knowing the police in this town since they know me by face and name and ID, they will take my cat from me and have a court order out saying I cannot have a pet in the home with me when I do get my own place again or get it back. They probably will also have the courts set an order for a permanent section of a month or more in the mental hospil where I needed to get that "tune up", and then extend it to where I can't have Green Level, which is to be able to leave the hospil if I would like and who knows they might have it ordered for me to not have my street clothes to wear and only wear scrubs and be on Orange Level, which means I can't go outside and am banned strictly to my room and will NOT be allowed to have a roomie, no matter how much I enjoyed it the last time and it benefited me. Anyways, what I'm trying to pinpoint and point out to y'all is, I was very close to having another seizure. This time I was on the bus. Now think of how that would make me look if I ever even tried to get a bus driver job part time. That wouldn't look good and they'd turn me down. That woudl be bad. Horrid, in fact. In other words, I'd be wearing the "cone of shame" for the rest of my life.

I think it might be the Saphris that's causing all this pent up stress and irritation. What do y'all think? I mean, I was doing so great without having the irritation with the mixed low moods before I was on Saphris, and now it seems like it's going down the rabbit hole. Maybe it's time for the next plan of medication action...I dunno what that would be now. The oversleeping has finally slowed down, and I'm finally able to only reset my alarm two times instead of the four or five or just turning it off, rolling over and falling back to sleep. But now it seems everything annoys and irritates me. I haven't cried up until yesterday and then again last night and then again the night before last. And I hardly ever cry. So the crying me is NOT me. I swear up and down, it's NOT me.

Oh yea and the "thinking about space" thing. It's back. Again. And it's getting worse. Not thinking about actual space. But just spacing out. It's getting worse. I used to have it bad before, but now it's getting worse. Then after awhile I have to literally shake my head and myself in order to snap out of it. Then after awhile I do it again. And again. It's repetitive now. Not just every once in awhile or every so often. It's almost all the time now when I'm awake. even when I am focusing on things, I start thinking about space. It's literally driving me to the point of insanity. Then after awhile, I'll start thinking about space then I start crying. Or start welling up with tears. It's getting crazy on that end.

My son is good. He likes to watch Netflix with me. He'll sit there and play with my butt, while I'm sitting on my rolley chair. To me, it makes me think that he's telling the world "hey, she's MY girl, get off!" Hehe. Good little one. This morning he was sitting in front of my door again when I got up. Sweet little boi. He tried to go fishing twice last night in the bathroom sink, after I had turned the water on for him. It made me giggle. Then I asked him if he was trying to go fishing in the sink, and he just purred. Good little boi. At least someoen's happy in this household right now. He needs to be happy for both of us until the medications are good and the thinking about space thing goes away and the crying stops.

I noticed no advice or support on this topic since I posted it. I'm going to bump this thread up and hope for replies, but if not then it wasn't meant to be. Thank u for reading and understanding.

Animo why don't you go to crazymeds.com? They have a whole forum dedicated to Saphris and you can post a new question there if you want. I've never tried Saphris or I would have chimed in about it.

Have you tried a conventional mood stabilizer like lithium, Divalpoex or Carbamazapine?

When I took seroquel it worked great but Ihad to stop because of excessive weight gain. Then I tried Geodon and had an awful lot of agitation, restlessness, Panic attacks and confusion. They are both atypical antipychotics but reacted very differently. Good luck

hvae tried all but the third one u mentioned. Lithium I can't take cuz I get highly addicted to it. Depakote because of weight gain, and I tried Geodon, and nope, I couldn't have none of that either because I couldn't eat very good and I eneded up losing a lot of weight from it. Not good there.

I have been looking into other medications, but am not sure of another approach. All I know is Saphris is really becoming troublesome for me. *facepalm*